I’m sure everyone’s read the news already, but if you live in a cave and only come out to read my little blog, I’ll recap.
We finally killed Osama Bin Laden.
I’m trying to figure out how I feel about that. I remember 9/11 pretty vividly. I was on vacation and sitting on my couch watching the news when they started covering the story. I remember the confusion about what was going on. The first tower was smoking like crazy and nobody knew exactly what happened. Then as facts started trickling in about a plane hitting the building I remember thinking what a horrible accident it was and that I hope they could put the fire out quickly. Funny how the mind tries to cope with horrible events by focusing on the best and quickest possible outcome.
Then the second plane hit and it was very clear that this was no accident. I remember feeling an intense hatred in my soul and as my daughter who was 8 at the time came out and asked me what was going on, I told her to sit and watch and never forget what she was seeing.
Still I was hoping that the damage could be contained, but it just got worse as the first tower collapsed. I was in total shock at that point. It was like a horror film. Unreal. Unbelievable. At each stage of sequence of events I just prayed that the horror would end and we could start cleaning up, yet the situation just got worse and worse.
And then the second tower came down. And oddly enough, there was a certain feeling that then it could not get any worse. The horror was over. Now it was going to be about survival and cleanup for those on the scene. Again, weird how the mind will try and cope in any way it can.
So ten years later we finally kill the top guy responsible for this horrible tragedy. Oddly enough, I’m not happy. I don’t feel like cheering in the streets, or posting some mindless patriotic drivel on my website, or pumping my fist in the air while wrapped in an American flag and eating apple pie and drinking a Budweiser. Instead, I just feel kind of numb.
Don’t get me wrong, I don’t feel sorry for Bin Laden one bit. In my mind I feel our country had every right to take this man’s life and in fact we had an obligation to do so. This is justice served and it’s been a long time coming. I just feel saddened that this is the world we live in. A world of constant conflict, constant warring, constant killing.
Anyway, I finish this post feeling relieved, as if a long open wound has finally been sutured closed and can finally finish healing. I pray for peace for the families who are closer to this tragedy than I am, and I pray for our country; That out of this we grow stronger, wiser, and more importantly, closer to our God who loves us.